Move on

When I was a child, I loved to play in the sand. I and my friends had this game where we would dig out the sand as deep as possible, leave our legs into the hole and cover it up with the dug out soil. We would then see if we are strong enough to pull our legs out of the soil without using any sort of help. Since we were kids, our deepest dig was somewhere around 1 or 2 feet and we had no trouble to pull our legs out of the loose soil. Sometimes, the boys would pretend that they are struggling to pull out their legs, causing the rest of us to giggle.

As an adult I have realized that even today a lot of stand with our legs stuck in soil. But the difference is, we believe that our legs are stuck firmly in the loose soil. We believe that we cannot move because something is holding us down. We don’t even try to move because we feel we cannot escape. The past that torments you is like this loose soil. You cannot run away from it, yes. But at the same time, it cannot hold you down either.

Our biggest fear is usually the Past. It is where our greatest joys and our biggest regrets lie. It holds our deepest, darkest moments and it is surprising that a lot of us not only fear our past but also blame it for our bad behavior. Our past is a lesson, not a life sentence. And we are just supposed to just walk through it, not carry it on your shoulders.

At times, I have heard people remark, “Don’t you judge me! You don’t know what I had been through”. Yes, your life has been difficult. I understand. But at the same time nobody here is living easy. Most of us live under stained glass masquerades with smiles to hide our pain. Your past can never be an excuse for your behavior unless you let it get the better of you.

Sometimes, we feel deeply impacted and scarred for life, in those times it is important for us to pray to God for strength to bear whatever is thrown at you. Pray to God that the misfortune will not affect your life and future more negatively than it had. Pray that you will be able to understand your lesson, let go of whatever is undesirable in the Lord’s eyes and move on.

Letting go and moving on is the most difficult part in life. Letting go doesn’t mean you quit. It means you are accepting that God hasn’t meant that thing to be yours. Moving now doesn’t mean you are throwing it all away. It means you have accepted the past and are now choosing happiness instead of hurt. And what you need is the grace to make this choice. 

From today, let us throw away all those trash in our hearts. All those guilt, fear, betrayal, anger, pain…everything. Let us learn to accept our past instead of living under it. You cannot reach for anything new if your hands are still full of past junk. God has promised a great future for you! So empty your hands and hearts of all the past bitterness to receive new and better blessings. Don't let your past wallow you up and away from those good things God has for you. 

~Lilac Blossom